It's just me

Starting breastfeeding is hard enough by itself, but having a household full of capable people who refuse to help with the mundane tasks of life makes it harder.  If someone is supposed to be helping you achieve the goal of making it past a few weeks of breastfeeding, because that is what had been decided by both of you, you'd think they would be more helpful with the other parts of keeping the household running.  Dishes are a great place to start.  Helping make sure there is food in the house for everyone, not just you, is another one.  Helping prepare food for the person breastfeeding would be another great place to put some effort in.  Making sure there are clean clothes for everyone is also very helpful.  I get so frustrated with the lack of help from the other capable adult in the house.  I should have seen this coming.  Hey I know you are working and that is great, but when I am responsible for everything else in the house while trying to d...

I feel like a failure each time I look at the clothes I have for the baby that won't fit for a long time.  I don't know what I did, if I did anything, that made him be so much smaller than expected.  The ultrasound at 35.5 weeks estimated him to be at 6 and 3/4 pounds, and I know that measurement can be off by up to a pound either way but I was not expecting a baby that weighed 7 lbs 8.6 oz at just over 40 weeks gestation.  I was expecting another close to 10 pounder.  I got clothes that would have fit his brother at birth and he swims in them.  I know he is healthy, has all his parts where they are supposed to be and is breastfeeding well.  I know I should be happy with that, but I just can't seem to get over the fact that he seems oh so tiny and it is somehow my fault.