Being vulnerable to the max
Had a couple/family therapy session tonight. I realized some things I have been avoiding acknowledging for a very long time. I also realized that when I make myself emotionally vulnerable, my body decides it is a good time to stall out and become vulnerable to physical attacks. I realized that I have made choices that have kept me in this mire of depression and self-loathing. I knew I did it, but I verbally acknowledged it to other people. This was a huge thing in my thought process of how to get out of this deplorable funk. I know that if I start to address these choices and change my behavior, that I will lose the relationship that I have cultivated with the choices. I know that I will need to reintroduce myself to the world and hope that the people that I have pushed away, choosing this relationship, are willing to give me another chance. I know that I, quite possibly, will need to meet new people to help create a network of support people. Looking at changing these things i...